well that went fast

or not.

we're not in kansas anymore, toto.

i will start by saying i did not read every post before starting this new post.

i will also say that since last here, i have moved, gotten a divorce, started a new job and moved again.

i don't feel bad for not being here until now because this place is a vacuum and i have been trying to connect to real human beings in my life instead of only with my own self.

but just the other day i felt like i needed to type....

o m gaaaaaawed! i watch television now! no no no, don't get ahead of yourself, not game of thrones or breaking bad or anything CRAzeee. but i watched the WHOLE series of gilmore girls and just started parenthood. i know. i hope you were sitting down. there is talk of this is us, six feet under, and ma-ma-ma-maaaaaybe friday night lights. we'll see. as with all of my other endeavors, let's not rush into anything.

whew! well i'll be. here i am again. 17 months later? shit goes fast. but no, it was slow, arduous, sad, miserable, enlightening, hopeful, fun, exciting, new, deep. so different. i am still me. i was me all along. i don't know that i actually got any smarter. i just decided that being happy is a better choice than feeling small and somehow, with the help of all my friends and family, counselors, strangers and angels, i am starting to ease on into it. and it feels great.