angel from montgomery

spring has sprung again. it always does. they say it could snow again, but that's not gonna stop the opening up of the eyes, the stretching of the arms, the deep breath in through the nose and the wakin up that is a happenin'. it's good.

i've seen this new sitcom - wait no. it's just a show, i guess. no laugh track. anyway - it's not that great, predictible, generic love interests and goofy characters....but i am falling for it. i know exactly why and i don't want to fight it. that feeling...that butterfly stomach, mysterious new person, handsome and funny and how is this going to go?

we've been married 10 years in two weeks. i haven't even tried to digest it. at all. we have a big vacation planned to hawaii and we are both really looking forward to it. unsure what to expect, but both definitely glad it's out there for us. that we planned it. but wow. 10 years ago we were getting ready to ship the dress, tie up loose ends, get ducks in a row....to get fucking married. insane in the membrane. in it to win it. it's been a long fucking road. ups and downs and all arounds. but i can sit here and say that even if i have a tv crush and even if i have dreams about morons at work - i only wanna wake up to pete. and go to sleep next to him and wake up again the next morning to him. i hope it lasts. i wouldn't wanna do it if it doesn't.

she done it again!

my bestest friend from college-days-gone-by had a baby boy!!!!! yip yip yipeee!!! i knew he was a boy the whole time. i just certainly did. strange to think about her visiting way the hell back in september and being prego while her thoughtless friends sipped tequila shots that she paid for! that seems so long ago. but now - here it's march. and here's the babe. 3-3-12. i LOVE birthdays, i love initials, i love all of it. joel william ungrodt is on the planet and best be glad about it. it's not all bad. it's NOT. sure it's annoying sometimes when people cut you off or there aren't any coffee beans or people aren't nice to other people....but we gotta just let those things go and not cut people off ourselves, go to caribou for coffee today and smile and be nice to the barista. boom. done.

when friends and sisters become moms it's just too much. i mean honestly. how do they do it everyday? i mean every DAY. it looks fun. it does. i mean the kids are so cute and funny and brilliant at opening eyes without even trying. i think it is a good thing to try. but holy moses. how do i get there? the road is just littered with debris. just a mess. i can't see it. but this day isn't about me. not today.

this day is about the baby joel! oh BOY. now THERE is a name. his gramps died of als years ago. just a royal bummer that he didn't get to meet his sweet bajesus grankids. cause they are gonna ROCK IT. they have a lot of friends already who they don't even really KNOW. and they have a lot of friends that I don't know. boo. but that's reality. i just read heaven is for real and i buy it. i'm all in. i love the idea. love it. i hope everyone is watching. when i pick my nose or cuss or do something i shouldn'ta i don't love it - but mostly i do so i am going with the YES vote on heaven.

to the ungrodts! shout out friends. you are something special and stick with it. keep on keepin on. you populate the earth with these great loads of kiddos and this human race will right itself yet. no pressure, ungrodt kids! smooch.